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Hi Everyone... I wanted to let you all know that I have moved my blog location... I did this for a few different reasons...

1. It's easier for people to comment and interact
2. You don't have the problems with having to get a blog account in order to post comments... 
3. They have crisper and cleaner layouts that make it easier for all involved... 
4. Spam- I get so much spam at this blog and I get pretty sick of it... 

Click HERE and you will be taken to the new blog location... I will be keeping this location, but nothing else will be added to this one... All updated and current blogs will be found at the new location... 

You can receive emails directly when you sign up through email... This is pretty nice and easy to do... Nothing much to do... 

15 Kids and She Wants US to PAY

A lady on my facebook posted this link and it blows my mind that people think that it is everyone else's responsibility to pay for them and their kids... 

This woman has 15 children and three separate guys have fathered the children... I think of Octomom on this one... But anyhow, that is a different topic... I'm not even going to get into the politics of all of this... But these are a couple of my thoughts on this... 

Why in the world should it be our responsibility to raise someone else's kids and to constantly be supporting someone who can obviously work? 

There should be a limit on how long and how much a person can get and stay on welfare... If there was a limit people may learn to close their legs and work to support their kids... 

I understand that there are times that people need help, but it is obvious that this woman does NOT want to help herself... She wants to help herself to all the welfare and assistant programs out there... 

She has nobody but herself to blame for the situation... I feel terrible for those poor kids who are caught in the middle... They didn't ask to be where they are... 

I wish I could get someone to pay for my rent,utilities,medical,cloths,food and everything else...

I have friends and family that get assistance... But at the same time they work and struggle to make ends meet... I don't have a problem with those who try their best to do better and make a living... If someone needs help, then they should get it to certain extents... 

It really ticks me off that this woman thinks that it is our place to take care of her... Uggg... I get disability and that is about it... I would never expect someone else to pay for what I need... But, as I said, if someone needs temporary help that is one thing... But so many are being enabled and why work if you can get everything you need for free... 

I use to work in a grocery store and let me tell you that there are alot of people that know how to get what they want from the system... They get free food and other things... It gets me when they would get their cars loaded with the hundreds of dollars worth of food and it all goes into a Cadillac Escalde or a very nice vehicle... Or when someone gets cash assistance to help with bills and they buy beer and cigarettes...Of course you can't say anything to them because of the sanctions in place... But, yeah.. I will leave that at that.. You get the point... 

Then there is the person who gets money under the table so they don't have to declare it and they still get assistance... Ughh... 

So, this is where I will shut up because this topic gets on my nerves... Oh! OK, I lied about this is where I shut up... On a political note, I'm not blaming one party or the other... I put alot of blame on the mentality of those who think they deserve everything handed to them on a silver platter... I do think there needs to be a major overhaul of the welfare system... My answer to this is that if they aren't going to work, make them do community services for the amount of services they are getting... Shoot, we will be saving money somewhere I would think... 

God Must Have a Sense of Humor...

I was just thinking about my blog and what I was going to post... I have been pretty busy with Dr appoints and trying to evade the ones that want to put me in the hospital... That is not cool... I went to the ER and they tried to get my blood pressure down and they couldn't getting it down... They gave me a choice to either be admitted or to go home and followup with my Dr... Well HELLO! What do they expect when they give me a choice like that... I went home and followed up with my Dr two weeks later... He is still worried about my blood pressure... So now I have to see a new Cardiologist at the hospital this week... I wasn't too impressed when he said to expect to not go home that day... My blood pressure in his office was 200/110 and that is with me just waking up an hour before my appointment... Now if I could remember who I'm suppose to see... I guess I will find out on Thursday... I just hope he doesn't have the same idea my primary has... Not sure what they can do... They said something about doing a drip for a few days... So we will see...

Other than that, I have been busy with our ladies group at my church... I love Patsy Clairmont so we did a FOCUS meeting titled "God Must Have a Sense of Humor".... I actually believe this... There has been so many things going on and I am beginning to think I should have been named Job... Just with a girly spin on the name... But I do think that God must have a sense of humor... Just look around and it is obvious... The FOCUS meeting went good and everyone seemed to have had a good time...The ladies were given garden hats and were able to enjoy being with each other and fellow-shipping... And I have to say that Barbara knocked it out of the park with the chocolate strawberry cupcakes... Thankfully I had many helpers to help set up... We knocked out the decorating in a few hours and tear down was only an hour... Why is it that things take so long to go up, but only a few minutes to tear apart? Anyhow! We had a great turn out and it was one of the bigger ones I have seen... We have many guests and it was an all around great day... I did end up going home and sleeping from 4pm on Saturday till after 12 on Sunday... I was beat...

So this about covers what has been going on... Oh, I should say, I have been watching Big Brother and not too sure I like  Dans game this time around... He is playing a good game, but not being very nice... So for all of you Big Brother fans, I'm with ya...

YAY... Finally Done

Today was a pretty good day... I found out when opening up my award letter from Social Security Disability that the date of disability is September 2010... That is really good because with disability they have a two year waiting period for disability... Since that is the date of disability, that means after this month I will be able to get on Medicare... For me that is the biggest plus because of all of my medical things... Our insurance we have no covers so little that I might as well not have any... It's nice to have a little extra each month to pay bills and stuff... But for me the medical and prescriptions is the biggest thing for me... I was very glad to read the date they determined I was disabled... I would prefer to work any day then not... But I'm happy about the medical part... If people have alot of medical problems and bills, they will know where i'm coming from... So it was a yay moment...

I'm very glad that I don't have to worry about all of this now and that I didn't have to fight them or go to court to get benefits... I was shocked I got it first time around...

RIP Sweet Landan

Landan on his 3rd birthday

I lay here in bed thinking about this little boy named Landan...I never met him or his family... But because of their plea for prayers, I joined their page called Team Landan...I happened across his page from the Jessie Rees Foundations Facebook page... Team Landan needed prayers because this sweet little three year old cutie was dying... He had brain cancer... I say had because he lost his battle with the rare form of cancer he had... His little buddy Brady lost his battle on August 4th... Brady was only 2 or 3 years old...

RIP Landan and Brady

The Pictures about were just taken this Monday, August 27th, 2012... Landan went to live with Jesus on Weds at 12:40 pm... This is a bitter sweet picture of love and loss... It breaks my heart... 

Just a couple weeks ago

I felt like I knew them because they opened up their lives and shared Landans journey with thousands of strangers... His page is the first page I go to when I open up Facebook... I feel very humble... When Carrie and Ed Bland sat and cradled Landan in his final moments, I couldn't help but cry over their loss... It's funny when I think about how someone can get personally attached to someone they don't know and have never met... Atleast I was thinking that... Now my thinking is different... Even though I never met them in person, we do have something in common... That something would be Jesus Christ... The faith and strength they have  shown during the trials they have gone through has touched me and taught me what real faith is... They put Landan in God's hands... They trusted God and praise Him for the time they did get to have with their son... They know that there will come a day that they will be with Landan again... They know he is with Jesus now...

I pray with a heavy heart that they continue to find peace and understanding... I don't know why children get cancer and other illnesses that take thier young lives... They just started living... Landan has changed the lives of literally thousands of strangers from all over the world... For me Landan and his family has shown me that even as we face death, we can stand firm in knowing where we will be... Atleast I know where I will be... I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, so I'm confident in that...

Landan 

My prayers goes out to this little boys family that I never met, but I feel I know him... The Bland family shared their son and his fight against cancer with the world... Thank you for sharing your son with all of us Ed and Carrie... Team Landans facebook page has alot of pictures of him from the time he was born till now...


I don't know about you, but I had no idea how many kids are loosing their battle to this horrible disease everyday... Just this week alone I read about 4children that lost their battle (Landan, Brady, Mandy and Jayden)... Something has to be done... A few of the kids that has cancer that could use prayers is Brooklyn, Cole, Ryan, Nicolas, Allie, ,Hunter, Mickey, Bella, Kendra, Presli, Jaylon, Wil, Avery, Lily, Kaylee and so many more... September is Pediatric Cancer Awareness Month... Here is some information I found on the Jessie Rees Foundations Facebook Page...

Here is a trailer for Jessie's Story... It's worth the time you will spend listening to it... NEGU (Never Ever Give Up)

RIP Landan, Jessie and all the other children who have gone to be with Jesus... There needs to be a cure... Also I would like to say that St. Judes provides free treatment to these children... The faces of these children breaks my heart and humbles my soul... Please keep them all in your prayers and go visit and like Jessie's page... They are waging a war on bringing smiles to the faces of these children and all because of Jessie's dreams. 

Finians Rainbow

Not too much to blog about... So I think I leave you all with a video from one of my favorite musicals... It always puts me in a good mood when life isn't going right... I love this musical... I wish they would play it at Tuachan... If you haven't gotten a chance to see the musical, you should...

Finians Rainbow- How Are Things in Glacamoora

The scene in this clip is where Woody is trying to raise enough money to save their town... Then out of nowhere the right amount of money comes pouring down... Fred Astaire and Petula Clark star in this show... But really the entire cast is awesome... Just a fun pick you up musical...

Approved for Disability- YAY

I have been trying to get on disability for a while now... I went to all their Dr's and finally today I found out I was approved the first time... Very few people get approved the first go around... I'm very happy over that since there isn't any possibility of me working...

I don't know how I got so lucky to get it the first time... I'm guessing it was because I had many hospital records, the hospital social worker, home health, my Dr's and Lord knows who else who has been talking to them and sending reports...

I have heard some horror stories of people having to wait for years to get theirs and have to go through appeals up to three times to try to get them to approve their case... I guess mine was easier for them to approve since I had all my medical things documented and they have been getting many reports that are current... One of my friends was very helpful in filling out papers and sending them what needs to be sent in... I'm grateful for the help that Chris has offered and for all the rides to my Dr's that Ruth has given me...

I did have to go see their Dr and psychologist... I guess they needed to make sure things were like they are... I also think that alot of people try to get on disability and get money from the government and they need to make sure there is really a disability... For me, I think I'm looking for medical benefits more... Right now our insurance covers nothing unless I have a cold or flu... And we have no prescription plan... So we are spending oodles of money right now that we don't have... I don't like the idea of not being able to work and I don't like the term disabled... But I'm glad this is over...


Now it is just a waiting game to see how much I will get... Even though they said I needed to get a representative payee... Not sure why that is... I'm thinking because of my memory issues and my medical stuff... But that isn't a biggie... I'm just relieved that I don't have to appeal my case and that it is over except to get the money... They said that would only be a couple of weeks... So I'm thinking Yay...

For all of you that are still trying to get on it, I pray that they hurry up... I felt for my sister... Her claim took 3 years of fighting them and a number of times before the judge... I was sure hoping mine wouldn't take that long...

Reality Shows and Their Craziness...

Some of you may know that I like to watch Big Brother... I'm not a big fan of reality shows, but I do like this one... One of the things I was thinking about tonight is how much the people that watch the show can get downright hateful... I was on Big Brother Network and reading the spoilers... Oh my goodness, some of the comments were horrible...

First off I want to say that this is a game... They put around 12 or more people in a house and they are kept from the outside world...One by one they evict someone from the house each week... They will do anything to get to stay in the house... Anything short of physical abuse and murder... On this season someone (Willie) ended up being banished from the game because he got into a physical altercation with the other players... But back to the purpose of this posting... People are terribly hateful and mean when it comes to watching these contestants try to win 500,000...

Big Brother 14 Cast

Some of the things that they call the contestants could be considered down right hate... What I don't get is how can you hate someone that is on a show and you never have met them... You are only seeing them as the network wants to portray them... I see some of the same people making comments as if they knew them and they were best of friends, lol... I think that if people get that much into a reality show and take it that personal then they need to shut off the television and live in the real world... Not in the world of TV Land... I just want to yell out and tell them, 'It's a Game"... But they take it personal and make threats... Shoot even last year Shelly was receiving death threats while she was in the house...

Now, for my prediction... As if that matters in this game anyhow... I think the one to watch out for  is Ian... Ian is a super fan and knows alot about the game... Alot more than the others are giving him credit for... I would like to see it be a Brittany and Ian final two... But who knows? My final thought on this is that if you can't handle watching a show like this and you think of these people as your real friends or such... Then I would say you are delusional and you need to turn off the TV and get a life...

OK, now I'm going to go and get ready to watch Big Brother tonight... There is going to be a double eviction and I wonder who will be sent home :) I'm hoping Boogie and Frank... And if not Frank it would be good to send Jenn packing since she is a floater... I love this show, and I know it is only a show and not reality...

Guilt Tripping Friends!

I was having this conversation the other day with a friend of mine... I felt bad for her because she felt like she had to live up to the expectations of one of her friends... I did ask her if I could blog about it since I think it is something we all may deal with sometime in our life...

When this conversation she was upset and crying because her friend was telling her that because she is a bigger woman that tells her that  people that are fat are lazy and slobs and doesn't care about themselves... She said she was embarrassed to be around someone that was 200 pounds... I'm guessing that is how much she weighs... I asked her how much her friend weighs and she said she is around 150 pounds... This is one of those topics that get me going... There are alot of reasons why a person is heavy... There are medical reasons and maybe it is because they overeat... But then maybe there are pains a person is hiding that is bringing to to the point of eating... I'm in no way a small person... I take medications to live that causes weight gain... I hate to say this, but I hope that people who judge others because of weight one day experiences the pain others feel... I know that isn't Christian like, but it is what it is... We never know what load someone is carrying and to judge someone because they are a bigger person is horrible... I do think that if someone is eating out of pain, then they should try to get some help... As a friend I would tell someone that instead of telling them they are a fat slob and not worthy to be around... I have no room in my life for judgmental people like that... What makes them any better than anyone else... If someone looked at me, they would think I eat much more than I should and they wouldn't know that I take steroids and medications that cause me to gain weight... If I didn't take them, i wouldn't be able to breath... But others wouldn't know that unless I shared that... And I don't do that because unless they are friends, they don't need to know what is going on with me medically...

But my friend was very upset because in order for her to be friends with this other lady, she would have to basically stay away from her other friends... She really wanted to be friends with her, but it was eating her up that she could never live up to what her friend wanted her to be... In my opinion, if you feel like you have to live up to what someone else wants you to be, then they aren't friends... Just my thought...

I asked her why she felt the way she did... She said the reason why she felt this way is because she every-time she turns around or she makes a decision that her friend doesn't agree with she will be told by her friend and looked down at... I told her that isn't a friendship then... There is no way you can make everyone happy... Lord knows, I have enough of a problem with that myself...

I had a friend once that wanted me to feel and think the way she did... If I didn't she would put me on a guilt trip... It took me a long time to figure out that she was't being a friend if she was trying to make me into someone I'm not... I have friends that are from all walks of life and that is good for me... But if any of those friends put a stipulation on me that I had to think the way they did or they wouldn't be my friend, then I guess they wouldn't be my friend... I was telling my friend that if she is upset all the time and she is being told that she isn't good enough to be herself, then she shouldn't want to be a friend with someone like that... They aren't being a friend if they are trying to control her that way...

Lately, I have had to eliminate people from my life because of different reasons... All of those reasons are because I was feeling worse about myself when I was around them... Even though it made it easier when one friend moved away, lol... I think we need to surround ourselves around people that are going to make us a better and happier person... When I told my friend that and asked her if she was happy... She told me she wasn't... But she would miss her friend if she wasn't in her life... I don't know what to tell her about that... I just know that someone never should make another person feel like they are worthless... There are enough people in this world doing that job already... And if someone is making us feel that way, then good riddance... Even though when it comes to family, that is easier said then done...That is a whole other story or topic... Or should I say it could be a whole book...

I don't know why people feel like they have to make others feel like they are a lesser person... I told my friend this too and that it isn't right for anyone to make her feel that way... For myself, and it is hard though, I have to walk away... And when my friend was telling me that she needed to talk to her friend and she said she would be there no matter what and in the end it turned out to be too much for their friendship... I can kinda understand that... Now, for me, I don't like telling everyone everything because it can come back and bite you in the hinney... And I do have some friends who don't understand things about my life and what I feel... I wouldn't expect them too... When I was telling my friend that it would be nice to have that once person who you can tell anything to and not have them judge you would be nice and a valued friend... She thought she had this in her friend and it turned out that she wanted to be friends on her terms... I told her I also have trust issues and have learned that there are some things to never share with others because it freaks them out and it is too much to deal with... She gave me a funny look on that, but she understood...

I guess she is going to limit the time she spends with her friend since she figured out that the person she called her friend is only her friend under her terms... That isn't a friend... I have many wonderful friends and she is one of them... And I had to be honest with her and tell her that even with her, there are alot of things I keep to myself and what we think some people want to hear or they say they can handle it, they actually can't handle it... I know that is probably bad advice, but it is what it is...

I might not have been the best person for my friend to talk to about this since I somewhat have the same issues she does... I have many wonderful friends who accept me for who I am and there are some who want me to be who they want me to be or to do as they do... I have gotten rid of most of those friends that are don't accept me... And I should say that if a friend isn't going to be honest and care about who you are as a person, then they aren't a friend... If they can't accept you for who you are, flaws and all, then they aren't your friend... When I told my friend that i don't share alot of the things I think or things that have happened, she asked me if I would share with her... I honestly told her no and that I personally feel that if I say too much, then people can't or don't want to deal with it and it makes people uncomfortable... She understand and gave me my space and she is going to think twice about those people in her life who want her to be friends under their terms...But then again, maybe people don't know how to be friends...

The Face of Cancer- Chidhood Cancer

Jesse Rees and her dad Eric

Here is a link to more about what the NEVER EVER GIVE UP is about...

My heart breaks for children who get cancer... This is pediatric cancer awareness month... I always knew children got cancer, but until I found a site on facebook called the Jessie Rees Foundation Never Ever Give Up, it didn't become real to me... Jessie lost her battle with cancer in January of 2012... I read her dads postings to her and I bawl like a baby at times...

Jesse and Her Dad... Breaks  my heart

I knew this young lady that fought brain cancer for many years... She ended up loosing her battle and I think of Jessica Delo very often... These kids go through so much and show courage and strength...

This sweet girl wanted to do something for other kids who have cancer... She wanted to bring joy to their lives... She started making jars called Joy Jars... They are filled with toys and fun little things that kids can play with while in the hospital fighting these horrible diseases...

Last night was I reading about this little boy named Landon... The Drs have given him around two weeks as of this Monday... He is sitting in his car seat holding his dog... He has a sweet smile on his face as he goes home... He is happy to see his little dog named Tink... You can go check out his facebook page and I know they would appreciate all the prayers you could muster up...


Here are just a couple of the thousands of children that are facing cancer each and every day...

Little Landon- He just got out of surgery...
Makes me want to hold him and tell him it will be OK... 

Little Landon and his dog Tink...

Then today I log into Facebook and the are showing a picture of this little girl named Bella... She was in remission and they got the test results back today and it showed that the cancer is back...They could use your prayers... Check out her facebook page and leave your prayers and words of encouragement for the family... They are in the process of doing a PET scan to see if there are more tumors throughout her body and they found 2  others in her pelvic area... They sure could use your prayers...

Little Bella- 9 Years Old

In Memory of Jessica Delo