"Busted Heart (Hold On To Me)

Here is another song about needing God to Hold On To Me and not to let me loose my way... Music has a way of speaking to me when nothing else makes any sense to me... Here is the video for this song... This song can speak to anyone's heart... Love this song...

Busted Heart (Hold on To Me)

By King and Country

Winter has come back again
Feels like the season won't end
My faith is dying tonight
And I won't try to pretend

I've got it all figured out
I don't have any doubts
I've got a busted heart
I need You now
Yeah, I need You now

(Chorus)
Hold on to me, hold on to me
Don't let me lose my way
Hold on to me

I am the wandering son
Your love is never enough
I keep chasing the wind
Instead of chasing Your love
I'm screaming out Your name
Don't let me fall on my face
I've got a busted heart
I'm in need of a change
I'm desperate for grace

Hold on to me, take all of me
Don't let me lose my way
Hold on to me

Broke Your heart a thousand times
But You've never left my side
You have always been here for me

You never let me go
You never let me go
Don't ever let me go

Hold on to me, hold on to me
Don't let me lose my way
Hold on to me

Hold on to me, take all of me
Don't let me lose my way
Hold on to me

Until it comes to an end
Soon this season will end
I'll surrender tonight
You meet me right where I am

Hold Me Together...

I have heard this song on K-Love and I didn't know who it was that sang the song... But here is the song... Very pretty song and speaks volumes of truth in the lyrics... I thought it was one of those songs that was a good timing thing... I'm going to try to study Romans in depth...I have to find the right study guide for it though... Something in layman's terms, not in over my head terms...  Not sure how much or how far I will get in it... But this song kinda describes my reasoning for studying it...

Here are the Lyrics to the Song:

I'm falling Apart
By Royal Tailer

Hello mercy
I have been searching for You lately
I've been wounded and from what I hear
You have the remedy

They told me You would be for me
so now I need to know
Is this a love that can save me
Or say you will then don't

Will You stay with me
When nobody is around
If this is real
Then tell me now

(Chorus)
Can You hold me together
Can Your love reach down this far
Can You hold me together
'Cause without You holding my heart
I'm falling apart, falling apart

Saying so long, been lost, been gone
Not sure what to pray
It's not easy, but I know You see me
When I lose my way

I keep on floating not knowing
If there is more for me
Don't want to sink beneath
Waves of negativity

I'm going under,
I'm afraid I might drown
If this is real,
I need you now

Chorus

I'm feeling stronger
With You by my side
And I realize You are my hope
And I need to know

Chorus

Without You
I'm falling apart
Falling apart

Forgiving the Unforgivable...

When it comes to forgiveness we are told in the Bible to forgive those who have hurt us... One study shows that one of the keys to longevity and good health is to develop a habit of gratitude and let go of past hurts... OK, now that is easier said then done...

When I read verses like the ones below, it tells me that I need to forgive others of whatever wrongs they have committed or God won't forgive me... I know I'm taking this out of context and reading other things into it... But it is what it is...

“Forgive us for the wrong things that we do. Other people do wrong things to us. But we know that we also must forgive those wrong things.

Forgive people when they do wrong things to you. If you forgive them, your Father in heaven will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive them, your Father will not forgive you.”

Matthew 6:12 and Matthew 6:14-15


“Forgive us our sins as we forgive those that sill against us.” There is no slightest suggestion that we are offered forgiveness on any other terms. It is made perfectly clear that if we do not forgive we shall not be forgiven. There are no two ways about it. What are we to do?

When I was looking up this topic online, I came across this:

Stop telling "the story." How many times this week did you tell "the story" about how badly you were hurt and how horribly you were wronged? How many times a day do you think about this hurt? It is a stake driven into the ground that keeps you from moving away from this hurt. Rather, forgive your enemy because it's the kindest thing you can do for your friends and family. Negativity is depressing - physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.

OK... So when I think about this, I think that it is saying that you just need to say nothing and get on with life... Is this what it is saying... But I do agree, some things never should be talked about... If they weren't talked about, then they would be left in the past and invade the present and future... I have thought about this and think it is true... If something happened, why bring it up... Stop talking about what has gone on and then it won't affect how I feel about things or people...

And I know that we are suppose to forgive our enemy more for ourselves then for them... Many times they don't care if we have forgiven them or they may not know if they have hurt us... I can't help but think about how sometimes that is a cop out or an easy out... We say we forgive someone, but do we really... I'm not saying forget about what happened... I don't think we should set ourselves up to let the same thing happen... But I know for myself there are some people that I have not forgiven... I know I should... But I haven't... If I did, I wouldn't still be venting over it or thinking about it... 

But then I was thinking about how much do people really want to hear about what is really going on? If they really knew what was going on in some people's lives, they would never ask anyone again how they are doing... I'm all for canned responses these days... My thoughts may not be right, but that's what I'm thinking at the moment... Sometimes it's better not to say anything then open up a can of worms that nobody can do anything about and that may be better left unsaid...


One of the other things I was reading was this... 

Retrain your thinking. When your enemy and his or her evil actions come to mind, send him or her a blessing. Wish your enemy well. Hope the best for him or her. This has two effects. One, it neutralizes that acid of hate that destroys the vessel in which it is stored. The evil we wish for another seems to have a rebound effect. The same is true for the good that we wish for another. When you make yourself able to return blessing for hatred, you'll know that you're well on the path to wholeness. The first 15 - or 150 - times you try this, the "blessing" may feel contrived, empty, and even hypocritical but keep trying. Eventually, it will become a new habit and soon thereafter, the anger and pain that has burned in your heart will evaporate, like dew in the morning sun. This technique forces your mind to overcome the cognitive dissonance between hating someone and acting with compassion toward him or her. Since there is no way to take back the kind gesture to agree with your hatred, the only thing your mind can do is change your belief about the person to match. You will begin to say to yourself, "S/he is deserving of a blessing, and indeed, must need one very much."

OK... Now I have issues with this one too... I'm not talking about just hurting someone... I'm talking about actual evil people... People who prey on the innocent and kill children... I have a hard time finding forgiveness for them... But the Christian in me says that we are suppose to do that... And that the final judgement is God's... 

Dooms Day- 2012

Well, It's a new year... 2012 is suppose to be when all these smart scholars say the end of the world is going to happen... I think I am ready for that to happen... But I don't see that happening and I'm pretty confident that we will be here next year and telling all those who thought we would be no more, "See I Told You"... I seen an article on Yahoo and figured I would put that on here for all you dooms dayers to read and soak in what it has to say... Click here to read the article 

This is a short but informative blog posting. 

A little update...

Thought I better do a little bit of an update since many are wondering what has been going on... Well, there has been alot... between Drs appointments and not feeling good, I haven't been around alot of people and have been trying to rest... I think I have been sleeping more than being awake and when I'm awake I'm at Drs offices... Not much fun... Hopefully everyone understands when they find it hard to reach me... Many times I can't answer my phone and I haven't felt too good to be on here much... So bear with me, things will get done.. I'm just a little slow and go right now...

Using Common Sense!

Ok... Not too impressed right now... I was finally getting to where I was feeling better and all of this week and going into now, I'm sick again... Not my normal daily stuff... Just cold and flu stuff...  But it gets me that we are warned all the time to cover our mouths and stay home... But then at the stores you see people hacking all over the place and those germs are going to go somewhere and I guess this time they entered into my space... Thanks to whoever that was...

Since I can't take the flu shot it bugs me that people aren't considerate of others health... Not all people can afford to get sick because another person wasn't thinking or cared enough to stay home where they should be... When I was working at a grocery store, I lost count of how many people would come into the store buying cold and flu medicine... There they are standing in front of me coughing, sneezing and all the other nasty stuff that goes with being sick... Why not send someone else to the store instead of contaminating everyone around... So from the time they come into the store, they touch carts, read labels to make sure which medicine is going to work, Stand at counters, talk to friends, get food if they need it, stand in line to check out, lean on counters to check out, cough in cashiers face or baggars face, use store supplied pens and leave them in place and finally they are going out the door... How many other people has this one person gotten sick just because they decided to venture out sick?

I have no idea where or who I got sick from because there is no way telling since I went to a number of stores... But it sure would be nice if people would use common sense... There are many people like myself that have bad immune systems that can't handle getting sick... Many are having cancer treatments or other kinds of treatments where a cold or flu could kill them... And not all people can take the flu shot... Personally I'm not big into shooting people with live viruses... I know many who have gotten sicker just by taking the flu shot or other immunizations... Now I will give into the thought that it saves lives and can help... But for me, I don't do immunizations, but then my Dr's don't allow me to take them anyhow with my medical issues...

But... This is my final statement on this posting... IF YOU ARE SICK STAY HOME... IF YOU ARE SICK, SEND SOMEONE ELSE TO THE STORE TO GET MEDICATIONS... IF YOU ARE SICK, STAY CLEAR OF ME!

Click here to find out more about the flu... 

Shoot or Be Killed

The other day there was this story about this 18 yr old girl that lives in Oklahoma that was faced with what she was going to have to do if the guys on the other side of her door got into her home... Her husband just died from cancer and she has a three month old boy at home with her... I thought it was funny how she called 911 to ask if she could shoot them if they broke in... The dispatcher told her to do what had to be done to protect her and her son... They broke the door down and she shot and killed one of they guys... She isn't going to be charged, but this made me think about what I would do...

I'm not a person who has guns in my house for many reasons... But then I wonder if that isn't such a bad idea... With all the people out there running around that try to take advantage of others, kill, steal or rape others... It may not be a bad idea under certain circumstances... I don't know how many times we hear about someones homes being broken into and those that are in the home are killed, children and all and what for? Sometimes it's for drugs, revenge, rape, stupidity or they are bored...

I wonder if I was faced with a sick person and was thinking right if I would be able to shoot him... I would think so if it was him or me and I knew what his intentions were... There are are a couple people atleast that I could see would be of no use to anyone anywhere... But then again, if I wasn't thinking right I guess I could plead temporary insanity like many criminals and get off anyhow... I've thought about that with some of the people I have known or those who I want nothing to do with and they refuse to get the message... If it came down to me or them, what would I do... I can say there are some people I would NOT miss... But if they threatened to kill or do something else, would I be able to defend myself if need be???  Seriously, if it came down to it I would hope so, but wouldn't want to... That would be a hard choice to take another life... Then I would hope that I wouldn't have to live with the guilt of taking another life since murder is a sin and can get you in a lot of deep trouble... That is unless you are Casey Anthony... But that is another story...

Then my mind got to wondering about spouses... How many times in the news do we hear about how one spouse will shoot the other and try to hide it... Right now there is the Drew Peterson thing coming to mind... If his wives knew they were going to end up dead by someone who said they loved them, do you think they would have killed their husbands in self defense... It seems like daily we hear about someone killing someone that they say they loved... OK! Now, I'm getting off topic...

On the flip side knowing how I get and not thinking I would do something stupid to myself... There have been times where innocent people have been killed and guns not put away safe... I have seen it where family members will go after other family members... But when is a good time to say it may be time to get something to protect yourself when there isn't anyone else there... This young lady did what she had to do and thankfully she isn't being charged...

I do think if someone has a gun they need to be responsible and learn how to use it... Make sure it is locked away where others wouldn't get hurt... All I can imagine is one of my grandsons or daughters getting accidentally shot because they thought it was a toy... I never let my kids have guns for many reasons... But I think this woman got it right... And I like what she said, "It's not an easy decision to make, but it was either going to be him or my son. And it wasn't going to be my son."

What would you do if you were faced with an intruder?

Oklahoma Mother Shoots Intruder Video

Our Christmas

Our Christmas was pretty low keyed compared to normally... We just had family over since my house still isn't finished from the flood... I haven't been feeling good and Jessica was sick too yesterday... Beckiah had to work... But it will be nice that we get to find out what she is having tomorrow... Will the baby be a boy or a girl? I'm hoping that it will be a girl... But whatever is fine... I think for Beckiah I hope even more for a girl... I would love to buy pink and purple cloths for  change...

But Beckiah made the turkey, I did the ham, Jessica did the yams, Craig did cream corn... It was nice that I didn't have to do everything and there was help... Yeah for that.... But I will post more on this later... I'm tired and have a heck of a headache....

Well, today we could say it is no longer Christmas... But I don't like that... I'm glad that all the craziness is over... But now I see posts and messages about how glad everyone is that there is no more Christmas music and it is back to what we call normal...

I can't say I would like Christmas music per say everyday... But I love music that sings about Christ and what He has done and that He was born to a virgin in order to save us and pay the price for our sins... Christmas seems to be the only time of the year where it is acceptable to sing about Christ without everyone getting their panties in an uproar... Sure we will hear about people grumbling about the wording of Christmas, Holidays or Xmas... But this is the only time of the year where I can go into a store or listen to the radio and hear the good news that Christ was born... I think that part of Christmas would be something we need everyday...

This Sunday we will be doing our Christmas... We didn't do anything on Christmas day since we just got moved back into our house and everything was crazy... So I still want to say Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone...

It's Almost Christmas

Wow, hard to believe that Christmas is around the corner... I haven't been posting much on here... But I wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas and remember this;

JESUS is the reason for the season. You can deny it. You can hide it. You can get offended by it...angry about it...try to stop it. But you can NEVER change it!

I may take a break for a week or so and regroup... I need to get things settled into my house and get things ready for our Christmas at our house... We are celebrating on January 1st since we got flooded...