Monday, April 4, 2011

Closed Doors

I think I am really beginning to like closed doors... I know it sounds strange... What I am getting at is that it is nice that when I am in my room and I shut my bedroom door, nobody comes in... I have everything I need within my doors... I have my computer, TV, bathroom, which would mean water and I have my bed... And when I want too answer my phone, I have that too... I think it would be great to have my bedroom doors with me all the time... I can choose to shut that door anytime I want and not worry about anyone coming in or knocking to disturb me... I'm sure many won't understand this unless they have enjoyed the undisturbed moments a door can offer... What's nice too is that there is a lock on the door... Even if someone wants to come in, then I can go as far as locking it...

Now, some may not like this since I seem to shut the door on many things lately... And as of this moment, it is OK with me... Will things get better when I feel the need or desire to open or unlock that door? I can't honestly say I know when or if that will happen... I have been thinking alot on this lately after a conversation with a friend... My friend would tell me that I should stop doing so much and take it easy and focus on myself... OK! Well, I think I pretty much took that literally... I stopped working with the Expo, I hardly ever go into where I worked... Which I do miss, because it was nice getting into conversations that make you think and more in-depth than normal conversations... But also stopped doing things at church and running into town as much as I use too... I am also taking a break from Facebook... But people can get ahold of me via my email if they need too... The only thing I can say that stopping all of these things has done for me is realize now I can stay in bed all day and do nothing since I'm not on a time schedule of any kind... Which is fine with me for now...  I had a Dr. friend of mine tell me I was making a mistake, but I guess I just chose not to listen...  But then many have said that I don't listen and on a path that is not good... 

In Conclusion: I have found it is pretty nice to be able to shut my door and close out the world... But don't anyone worry because things are fine... And that is pretty much my generic answer for anything... At this point in my time, I have been doing alot of over thinking and evaluating things... And the best way to sum up things is that it is a me thing and everything is fine... No need to stress, that's not why I am writing today's blog... Just wanted to explain a bit why some may not see me around too much... It's not you, its a me thing...  I have alot of wonderful family and friends in my life, give or take a couple of people... I know that there are many that care and wonder what is going on... All is well ! I am just hoping this is a short lived faze...But I think it is important to have a door so I can slam it shut and just shut out the world... Is this the right approach? Not Sure! But it is, what it is...

My email is; 63angel@ilovejesus.net

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sandie, Sandie, Sandie! Since you are going to be in town tomorrow afternoon to drop off JJ to your daughter, you should call a friend up and go out to lunch or dinner and talk or just have a quiet time with a friend. I know you have many. I won't be available since I have to work graveyard and need to sleep. Do me this favor Sandie. Or the first person that asks if you want to go out to do something, say YES! If you don't want to talk about particular things, than keep it light. Call me if you need anything. Doors don't work with me, I know where you live. I also have crowbars in the trunk to open locked doors lol.

your friend Laura

Sandie said...

Hi Laura... How do you know I was going to be in town tomorrow... But yeah, I am in the afternoon... Bridgette and I have to get food for the house, even though I don't each much,they all have to eat... I wanted to take JJ to go see Hop tomorrow, but not sure if I will be able to go to the movies and dinner takes money honey... So maybe next week I will do the dinner thing with someone... Haven't been very hungry anyhow... I'm sure you know how that is... Have a good night at work tonight...