Some Rambling Thoughts

This blog will be about a couple things. I have just been thinking about a few things. So going to post them all here, or atleast some of them.

1. The most important reason for this post is for prayers for some missionaries that our church supports.


Craig and Allison Fowler and their children are Missionaries in Ethiopia and have been coming across some spiritual warfare and your prayers are needed. Here in the states we don't get the kind of opposition they get in other countries. There are some wonderful praise reports coming from the Fowlers though. They are telling stories to the gumuz people. God has been working in their lives and things are going great. But like I said,at the same time Satan is working on them. So please keep them in your prayers. During our Mission Moment they stated the types of opposition, but I can't remember what it was. Either way, it is Satan being his normal bad self and they need to have protection and prayers.

2. I have some people that have been wondering how I have been doing. I have been really tired. More so then normally, but I am ok for the most part. Although some won't agree with me on that. I think mainly I am just way tired and the summer heat is getting to me more then usual. I am chugging along and doing what needs to be done. I don't really post medical things too much on my blogs though since it is so complicated and gets people worried. Plus you never know who comes and reads the blogs, so I am a bit careful on what I post on here. But as of now, I am hanging in, just tired.

3. It really ticks me off when I read or listen to the news and so many people are hurting their own kids of families. People have no contious. Not all people, but the ones that are doing these things have to be of Satan himself.

4. I am sooooooooo looking forward to the Second Coming of Christ. I pray that all people who have heard about Christ, has accepted Christ before it is too late. I can only imagine what it is going to be like when Christ comes again or what heaven will be like. Just think about the peace that there will be there and to worship with Christ Himself. That will be an awesome day. I do worry about those that I love and care about and if they have accepted Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior. We are told that there will be no pain or suffering in heaven. When I think of this, I wonder if we will have the memories of those that we love that won't be there. Will their memories be wiped from our minds. It would seem that it would be way sad if we remembered them and loved and they weren't where we were. I think in this months newsletter I will post the question about this. I have wondered this many times. Usually others post questions, but I think I will add one of my own on this one.

Ok, ow I am done for now. So I will go and as I feel better, I will post more. Even though I think I will add a video of my dogs on here.

God Bless and have a good day

Why Am I Here Still?

This post is for my friend that is hurting right now and is having a hard time understanding why she is still here and hasn't gone on to be with God yet.... I don't want to mention her name, but you will know who you are.

I know it has got to be so hard to understand the reasoning why you are here still. I have wondered that myself when it comes to myself. But then I think it is because there is something that God still wants me to do or to work through me. Even though I may never understand that purpose. It is hard to accept though.

I wonder sometimes if the reason people get scared of heaven or God is because we haven't been there yet and can't see with our own eyes. And I know for myself, I'm not afraid of God. But I am afraid of the thought of when I stand before Him all the bad things I have done in my life will come rushing back at me. Even though reality and Gods Word says I am forgiven. It is hard to forgive ourselves. I do wonder with you though, if it is more of a fear to leave those behind that will miss you and your afraid they won't survive or will have a lot of problems. You are a fixer of things and have a heart for people. That is a special attribute to have, but hard to carry each day.

I think heaven is going to be so wonderful, but I also feel that our minds and heart can't rap itself around the idea of what it is truly like. We have nothing here on earth to compare it to. We are told, but we have never experienced it.

I do pray that God will give you the peace you so much desire. He must see a great gem in you, because you are reaching many people through your pain and they need you because of the pain they have. But my prayers are that you are shown true peace. Even though that is something that the human part of me isn't happy with. because I would miss you. And I would have to say would be a bit envious. I can just imagine what it would be like in Heaven. Where there is no pain, tears or death. I think anyone who knows there is such a place longs to be there. And I know we will be and thankfully I have God on my side :).

What comes to mind is the song "Three Wooden Cross" and how it talks about three wooden crosses on the side of the freeway. And how there would have been four of them. And it talks about how one was a pastor, the other a teacher and the third a farmer. The 4th cross that would have been there was a prostitute.

This Pastor was telling his congregation about the Three Wooden Crosses, and how the pastor that died in the crash gave this women a Bible that had blood on it. The Pastor telling the story and holds up the bloodied Bible and tells them that his mom was the prostitute in the car that day and that his life was changed because of this pastor that died that day.

Big HUGSSSSSSSSSSs to you my dear BRATT....

I may post this or some of this on my blog...

P.S. If anyone who knows they are dying is afraid, I would say that is OK. God knows we have this fear and if we have Jesus in our lives and He lives through us, we have nothing to fear... Although that is easier said then done.

Back to work... Well somewhat :)

I finally got one of my Drs to sign my medical release to go to work. Which is nice. I have missed going to work. It gives me something to do that is outside of my own world and focus on something else. When my daughters were growing up, I was always on the run and didn't work because I needed or wanted to do the mom thing.

But yesterday started off on a more then horrible note when Mickey died (My daughters dog). But he died, and Jason buried him at thier house and put his favorite toy and collar in the grave. I feel so bad for her. I can feel for her. When I lost Brandie, I thought my world was gonna end. I still have Brandie on my phone and I think of her probably every day and pray that there is a doggie heaven. I don't see how there can't be one. Animals love us unconditionally and know when we are upset and mourn as well. How can they not have a place in heaven. I hope that my Brandie is waiting for me when I get to heaven.

But on a less sad note: I did go to work last night. I only worked 5 hours, but it was nice getting back to doing something outside of going to Drs. And I also filled in today for a few hours. Im not sure if they are gonna put me on a scedule or if they are gonna use me as a fill in... But either way, it works.

I am gonna go and I hope everyone has a good night... And as a reminder, go out and vote... Most states are having early voting, so no reason not too.