Taking the Wrong Road... Spiritual Warfare and Bad Choices?

For those who don't believe in demons and evil things out there, I have to disagree 100%... I have no doubt in my mind that there are demons out that that want to destroy us and take us from God... I think even more so they come at us with a vengeance when we are Christians... What more could be a great victory for Satan than to destroy someone who belongs to Christ... One of the things I know, but have a hard time applying is that we must always be on guard against the enemy and never give him a foothold to destroy what God has done in our lives... And you can't always trust what you see and hear... Demons can alter what they look like and may even appear as an angel...

"The lie" appears to be good and true because Satan presents himself and his belief system in such a way so as to make it appear that his teaching is truth from an "angel of light" (2 Corinthians 11:14).

The Fork in The Road

Fork in the River not Road lol

What gets me wondering about this is when we know what is right and wrong, but there is like these two sides... You have the good and the evil... For example, say I am driving down the road and I know that if I turn one way, that it would not be a good choice... I know what will eventually happen there and that choice would be a disastrous ending in many ways.... Or I could choose to not turn on that road and protect myself from those feelings and thoughts that would be better off and more positive in the long run... But then there is that overwhelming feeling that just pushes you to the road that would have a disastrous ending... I wouldn't be able to say "The Devil Made Me Do It"... My personal thoughts is that the devil can't make us do anything, we have a free will to make our choices...There are so many things that run through my head that I feel trapped by them...  But knowing this, it seems like I still choose the wrong road and knowing what the outcome would be or could be... I think that stresses people out alot and I wonder if I should just not say what I am thinking, because that worries people too much and that isn't right either... 

Ok, now my thought goes to this and I was thinking about this last night while I was out for a few hours... And that would be how my walk is with God right now... I have to admit that I have been lacking in that department... I know God is there, but I don't read the Bible as often as I should, I seem to still pray for God to show me what He needs to show me or what I need to do... I need to get some kind of normalcy back when it comes to spending time with God... God does speak to me mostly through my dreams... Must be because I don't listen very well during the day... But then while I am at my place in Snow Canyon, there is this voice or prompting that tells me I am doing what needs to be done and not to worry about it... I'm not talking about a literal voice, just a voice that speaks to your soul or emotions... Not sure what to think on that... But I have found that I have been being pushed to go one direction and knowing I should be going this direction... 

I was trying to explain something to someone last night... It is really hard to explain things when I don't even understand that... It is almost like "It is what it is!"... If I understood it, I wouldn't be wondering about the things I wonder... I'm sure there has to be others out there that just can't understand why they feel or think the way they do and it's hard to explain what is going on, when you don't know yourself... I wonder if there is any answers to these questions anyhow... Is there a right or wrong or am I just trying to think things out in my brain or in writing? Maybe I just need to go read the Enquirer since my Inquiring Mind wants to know these things...

Petrified Sand Dunes

But I think on Friday after all my stuff is done and Craig and I are done with my b-day lunch, I am going to grab a bottle of water and go to Snow Canyon and do whatever comes to mind... I really like the Petrified Sand Dunes area... I'ts pretty cool and so is the area by the path... There is alot of tree's and even a little picnic table to sit at and rest... I guess I will have to go get my last I am hoping blood draw though and then go to my place...

On another note, I think we need to be careful about who we let into our lives, family or not... I think that many times people come into our lives needing help and knowing that you would let them into your life, especially since they are family and then it turns around and bites you in the butt... I have one family member atleast that is like Satan must have intentionally planted into my life to cause chaos and destruction... How do you just shut the door and say now when there is nobody else there to help and you are told in the Bible to turn the other cheek, forgive them 70 x 7 and then you have if they ask for your coat, give it to them... How do you say no, when we are told these things? But then we are told not to be a fool... How in the world are we suppose to make good choices, when all the choices we make can be wrong no matter how you look at it...

Bible Verses about Forgiveness and Helping Others:

• (Matthew 5:39-42) 39 But I tell you, don’t resist him who is evil; but whoever strikes you on your right cheek, turn to him the other also. 40 If anyone sues you to take away your coat, let him have your cloak also. 41 Whoever compels you to go one mile, go with him two. 42 Give to him who asks you, and don’t turn away him who desires to borrow from you.
• (Romans 12:19-21) 19 Don’t seek revenge yourselves, beloved, but give place to God’s wrath. For it is written, “Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord.” 20 Therefore “If your enemy is hungry, feed him. If he is thirsty, give him a drink; for in doing so, you will heap coals of fire on his head.” 21 Don’t be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
• (Matthew 18:21) 21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?”