Friday, May 13, 2011

What is it I Need?

I was having a conversation with a friend on Facebook a week ago...We got talking about what it is that we are needing in our lives... She was talking about her spiritual life and that got me thinking... I know I have been using that word (thinking) way too much... We covered a number of different things that we both need in our lives right now... I thought I better right them down before I lost my train of thought..

What I am covering in this blog isn't my physical needs... I am way to tired of that whole conversation and really that isn't really what is important right now... If we aren't spiritually healthy, nothing else matters... I know where I am going to be and I have accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior... So physically it just is what it is...

What is it that I am really needing right now? That is really hard for me to answer... Also what is my goals when it comes to my spiritual life?

My Goal is to be right with God and feel His presence in my life... Now how do I reach that goal? I think I am missing the mark somewhere... Maybe I am just trying to hold onto the past or I'm expecting too much...

It drives me nuts when people tell me "God never said it was easy"... I understand that fully, I just don't need to be told that all the time... I am wondering if because I am a believer in Christ that Satan is going gung ho in my life. There is an interruption of peace in my soul and life...  I would think that demons can attack by gaining strength because of weaknesses in my life.  It's as if they attack through my mind using my emotions, past hurts and weaknesses...

List of  lifes questions that need answers:

  1. How do you mend the holes in the soul?
  2. How can peace be found within when there is only turmoil and destruction?
  3. How do you trust again, when your not even sure who to trust?
  4. How to accept what is to come and let go of what I can't control or change?  This is a hard one for sure!
  5. How to feel like I'm not drowning in the desert?
  6. How to get back to spending quality time with God? 
  7. How to find comfort when faith is being tested?
  8. How to make sure you will be forgiven for doing something stupid?
I am hoping that some kind of order comes about soon and that something happens that will bring things to a full circle... Maybe I am just over thinking things or trying to make sense of things when there is so reason to worry about it... But I know without a doubt that if I am not right in my spiritual life and with the Holy Spirit, nothing else matters... I can't understand how people can go through the desert and not know that God is there... I would just want someone to shoot me if I didn't have that to hold onto... I am wondering alot lately too if I am more of a Jonah than a Job... Or maybe I am a combination of both... I will have to do a blog on this topic since it came to mind...

Oh well... I am done with this thought now... I am sure you all are happy over that one... :) I would love to hear the phrase "It is Finished"...

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I found your blog on accident today. If you get any answers to these questions, I would like to hear them too. My heart and soul have been in this war that is deep and on going. I feel like I have walked into a pit and can't find my way out. I keep praying for God to give me some answers. My thoughts have been suicide from time to time. I know that isn't the right answer. I don't know what to do anymore or who to turn to. I have talked to my family about my feelings and find it nice to see that others struggle with the same things I have been struggling with. They tell me that I am being sensitive and I will feel better. You're not afraid to put the questions and your thoughts out there. Thank you, Amber Lee

Anonymous said...

The only one totally trustworthy is our Lord Jesus Christ. He always does what He says He will do and He never changes.

Christians are forgiven for all sins, past, present and future, at the time of re-birth. This is truth. This is not a feeling.

You might not think you are thinking straight, but you are thinking clearly enough to ask the deep questions.

Sandie said...

Thanks Amber for finding my blog... I hope it is of some help to you... I know in my heart that is true and thats for your reply annonymous 2... It is nice to know that God forgives all even future bad choices and I am full of those I am guessing... Those questions took some time to word right, but they sum up what I am feeling I think along with a whole lot of other things... But thanks again... I will have to read over it when I am more awake again...